I'm Always Going Back To Fix Things

I have realized something a good and bad quality about myself growing up. I'm always looking back to fix things and even if it is not fixed or the other person has no intention of reconnecting, I at least try. I recently reached out to someone I haven't talked to in six years and even though I haven't heard anything back, I'm happy with at least trying. As a man I have made mistakes and could have made better decisions when it came to some of the people in my life and there are things I could have done better. Of course I can't change any of these things and at this point I have let them go but that doesn't mean it doesn't cross my mind from time to time.

As human beings no matter how long it has been the past comes up sometimes. There are days when I reminisce on my younger years and sometimes even laugh at myself for how naive I was back then but that is part of growth. Growth mindset is looking at the past or looking at current circumstances and knowing we can always grow and be improved. There is nothing fixed about the amount of intelligence or skills we can acquire and to me we can always learn something no matter how old we are and that is something I embrace. I am always trying to acquire as much knowledge as I can and use it to push myself going forward. In this circumstance I had a falling out with this person and I could have handled it much better but I cut off all contact and moved on with my life.

Sometimes people are only in our lives for a season and maybe that was the season but six years later, I'm reaching out. This is not the first time I have done this and to be honest I don't think it will be the last. When I started my job in the mental health field I was introduced to a whole different sense of life and what people go through on the daily. Being in the middle of it and seeing what people fight with opened up a different view of things and I started reaching out more. I was reaching out to people I hadn't spoken to in over two years just because you don't know the battles each and everyone was facing. The funny thing again is a lot of these people were ones I had a falling out with and of course it was my fault. I got responses back and even if those people are not back in my life, I reached out and made sure they were good. I remember one circumstance years ago in which someone I went to High School with was shot in his home point blank over a drug deal gone wrong.

He was around the age of 22 and there was an outcry of people paying tribute to him and talking about how great of a person he was. I called these people out and talked about how a lot of these people may have never reached out to him when he was alive to check up on him or gave him advice on making better decisions. He wasn't a bad individual but the direction he was taking wasn't the right one and just a person reaching out and giving him advice may have changed this for him and this is including me. I saw from a distance on social media the life he was living but I never reached out or called him out on the decisions he was making. Even though I wasn't best friends with this individual, we were close enough and he was best friends with one of my sisters. All I'm saying is we can't fix everything but sometimes at least trying and reaching out can make a difference.